Well, if you read my last post, then you might have picked up on the fact that I am feeling a little inadequate! I might have to subtitle this blah, blah, blog with "the rantings and ravings of a lunatic"! I feel like a bulimic who has stuffed herself with all this food (but in my case, it's yucky feelings) and the only way to feel better is to vomit! And you lucky people get to be here to read my vomit... so to speak.
This week, I just have felt like running away. And the fact of the matter is that as long as I have a place to stay and take the kids with me, then I could run away. But would that suddenly make things better? I wasn't wanting to run away from my husband; though, he probably wouldn't mind a little time way from his looney wife right now. Running away isn't going to help, cause it would be like trying to run away from my annoying, smelly, siamese twin. (this is a metaphor. i don't actually think i am smelly or annoying, though after this post, i might rethink the annoying bit.) Anyway, the point is, I can't run away from myself.
I knew I was feeling depressed lately, but I think I finally realized why. I have done nothing of importance in the last year. The year previous to that I felt like I had accomplish a lot. I was a supervisor at work, I gave birth to my fourth child... who was nine pounds by the way! Hello! I managed to take care of myself and four kids for five months without my hubby. I don't know how those military wives do it. And I packed up our home, got it rented, and moved a thousand miles away!
What have I done in the last 12 months? My mother-in-law would probably say that I drove around San Antonio like it was nothing. I say, thank you GPS. I did paint some dresser drawers.
Woohoo! I am about half way done reupholstering a couch. If I get that done, then that could be something.
Being a stay at home mom and wife is hard! I am so grateful that I am able to be at home with my kids, but somehow it seemed easier when I worked. And, when I worked I was still home with the kids during the day. I need to DO SOMETHING.
Yes, I am stressed and depressed. I have lost 10 lbs since the new year, and I wasn't trying. My face is breaking out like some kind of teenager. Note to mom: if you mention my broken out face again, your skype privileges will be revoked!!! Only kidding mom! I love you.
I guess that is enough ranting and raving for now. Thanks for reading/listening... I probably lost half of you after the first paragraph. Oh well. I purged for the day. And if I offended any bulimics, I am sorry!

P.S. If you read my last post about the bumpit, I have to mention my friend who told me she rocks her bumpit everyday, and pats her stomach! : )